should i say i've no time for xanga or am i juz lazy to do so..?

time flies, and it comes to almost the end of the first semester,

presentations and papers are still on going, and i do always struggle til the last moment of deadlines

I;ve regular school days, sports team's stuff and other courses....in weekdays,

and doing preparation / hw after classes,

100 - 130 am is the usual time of going to bed in recent,

that's such an unhearlthy habit! it didn't quite suit my "healthy style".

I continue to dedicate my weekends to tutoring,

both Sat. and Sun, which it's not suppose to be in that way.

but the concentration period of the girl is so short........

so asking her to have a 4/5-hour tutor is a 'mission impossible',

& it's a torture to me of maintaining her to pay attention as well.

seeing frds and others taking grad. fotos these weeks,

heaing them doing so well in their new environment,

i am so worried about myself.

after all these years, i still dont think i have developed more talents or skills,

i'm not brilliant and unique enough to stand out from the crowd or compete with others.

i'm such a piece of sh*t............ help

anything special to memtion about?

of coz it's the short return of lover Hidie,

but she's as busy that didn't reserve time for tea with me,

I only took grad foto with her last Sunday.................i'm so depressed.

while talking about the souvenir she bought for Hawaii,

I received a Djembe this time (the last time was a Uku Lele)

lover said that she would buy me a collection of instruments to form an orchestra someday...

thanks babe, and enjoy your time left in Hawaii// =]